Layla Ojeda

Educator/Teacher, Global soul, Job-seeker, Writer/Editor

Psichology, the process of the brain, emotions and understanding human behavious. Healing and spreading happiness.

We have been concealed to not showing our emotions, forced to feel out of place for not checking every item on an invented random list. But we are all so unique nobody can label us, and we are all so connected we can't be happy on our own. Communication, constructive communication, is key. As well as feeling.

I had a complicated childhood, I could and should write about it. My parents had drug problems and I was raised by my aunt, who took me years to realise wasn't mentally healthy. She raised me throught violence and tension and made my brain develop in a very f**ed up way. When my surroundings realised what was going on, I went living with his exhusband, a very hardworking and very non emotional person. Though he loved me very much he couldn't relate to me nor had the skills to understand what was going on in my brain, and that made me feel like something was wrong with me, like all I could do was disappoint. So thanks to my incapacity to understand I deserved being loved and his difficulties expressing it the way I needed, I entered a depression that lasted years. Having mental issues since I was a kid thanks to my carers, I haven't realised my brain works different until this year, turning 29. So this year I started a journey that is showing me a lot about me, about mental disorders, about what I deserve as a human, about the importance of emotions and validation and about what being a human means. Up until now I always though that was me. Now I'm starting to learn who I really am and what's on them and I can heal. And I'd love to be able to find my way to share all I've learnt in this forced process, since I know many people don't have to struggle to understand what I have been working on for years, thanks or despite of my childhood traumas. So now I don't feel so lost, I know I'm on my way to finding my path.

Until a few months ago not even I knew (or believed) I have a high skilled empathy and strong emotional abilities and comprehension.